Web cam <3

New webcam, swollen eye, first attempt at vlogging, lol.
Camera loves me? Camera loves me not? LOL.
Doesn't matter, haha. I was bored & stressed out, felt like trying something different. My eye hurts ='(

Ohh Anything for the SOCIETY.

I've been observing teens a lot lately,I live with some anyway, and I feel like the teen community has changed quite a lot since my teen days. I think it's EXTREMELY stupid that these things are considered important to them now :

** Social events :
Gigs, group hangouts or meets, school concerts, carnivals, basically anything which involves a lot of people, where they can 'mingle' around and stuff, etc.
Eg : Next week there's this gig and ALL my friends are going, but mom won't let me go, she wants me to study. My mom sucks, she doesn't understand me, she's so uncool. (If I had the power, I'd slap these kinda teens up and down the wall)

I actually like going for gigs, but I wouldn't abandon my studies or lie to my mom about it.

** Who they hangout with :
Are the ppl they hangout with popular enough, good looking enough. Or do they have a lot of friends I can 'tumpang' be friends with.
Eg : Oh My God, Mr.A is going for that gig tomorrow, if I don't go, everyone else will get to be friends with him, and not me, my life is over!(ohh please).

I seriously don't care if I go out with only 1 person. And I don't care if there won't be any 'hotties' at the place I'm going to. Pfftt..

** Relationships :
Are you single? Or do you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend? What? Why? I'm single, and I'm loving it (good for them). But she has a boyfriend, and she's been having problems, oooooohhh. Poor girl. Ooohh, why can't I be happy? What if no one wants to marry me? Oh my God, what if my boyfriend cheats on me? Will we get divorced in the future? Ohh my oohh my. (Give it a freakin break man).
Eg : Tomorrow Miss B has a maths test, but she worrying about something. What is it, "I can't concentrate, coz I'm not sure, does he like me or not?? He's been smiling at me for days, but I'm still not sure, does he like me?? Oh my God, I'd rather be hanging out with him right now than sitting here and studying so I can have a bright future".

Ok I kinda exaggerated on some of the examples. But yeahh, that's how it seems these days. Maybe not ALL teens. Coz I know some are still sane and sober from all that crap, and they still have a sense a guilty concsience within them.
Anyway, I totally understand that this is the stage where they wanna have fun and socialize with people. I used to feel that way too.Hey, I've been there.
If they're actually able to balance they're studies, and respect towards their parents and hve fun atthe same time GOOD for YOU!

What I hate is that, because they care so much about all those stuff they tend to go overboard with certain things. Like, lying to their parents just so they could go for a gig or what-so-ever. It sucks that they never think about the kind of things they're parents have been through in raising them.
For example, a father works day and night in a factory, just to raise money for the kid to have a better life. And what does the kid do, spend it on gigs and expensive clothes, just so everyone would think he's cool.
Second example,
A girls calls up her mom after school, and tells her that she'll be back late because she has a meeting. But the truth is, she doesn't even have a meeting, she goes out for lunch with her friends, and go flirt around with guys in the library.
Although, she would totally deny all that, just by looking at her,you'll JUST KNOW.

How would the mom feel about that?
BETRAYED. All this while I thought we're like bestfriends, but this is what she's been doing to me all this while?
I feel really sad for these people.
I'm not saying I've never lied. I have, but only when it's really important, when I know the truth might hurt my mom or dad.
But EVERYTIME I go out anywhere, I always inform my mom about it.

OK take it this way. What if , while the girl was out having fun, and she gets kidnapped or hit by a car. Her mom's at home, thinking that her daughter is so hardworking, she's in a meeting. What a GOOD daughter, I'm the luckiest mom alive.
WRONG!

Maybe I'm just speaking from what I've seen. I'm sure, there are a lot of teens who are waaaay different than the ones I mentioned.
But,I'm juz wondering, how can we get these people to think straight.
Aren't they worried about how they're doing i school? Or how they're lives are gonna be like in the future. It's easy to hide your report card now, but what are u gonna do when you've got no place to hide anymore.

It's just dumb.
I wouldn't wanna see my mom or dad be treated like crap because they didn't allow someone to go for some lame gig that the WHOLE WORLD is going for.
As twisted as I may sound, I enjoy kicking those people in my dreams ;)

Photography Attempt ;P

During the one month semester break in December I think, my dad & I drove together to Perak to fetch my sister from her Petronas interview camp. 5 hours was a pretty long drive, so I got into the whole 'photographer wannabe' mood, lol. I took a few snaps of the places we passed along the road with my dad's phone, heee hee heee.. I took a lot actually, but these are my two favourites, and I thought I'd share it on here.

I like seeing old shop houses like this one. I feel that old architecture is waaay beautiful than the modern ones now ( some), eventhough they're just shop houses.

That's why I'm sooo into vintage ;)

Even with the mouldy look, it still looks great.

And yeahh, I kinda did a lil editting. Juz a lil contrast, that's all =)

Addiction

Somehow, just SOMEHOW I have lost my touch in recording a decent audio blog.
Why is that, I ask myself? Why Qila? WHy?
Too much on your mind? Maybe.
Too much caffeine? Most probably. Just a few days ago, when I went out for a movie with my gals, I went to get drinks for them n cameback with Iced Nescafe for myself, and my friend Sara said, "Qila ni asyik Nescafe je", in other words, she reminded me of how often I take coffee. In one day, my average intake of coffee is about, 5 mugs. LOL. Yess yes, I'm a bad bad girl. Bad Qila! Bad, bad!

But the weird thing is, I can actually STILL fall asleep in class.
I know, I know, that's sad too. Unfortunately, the whole 'falling asleep in class' thing has become so easy for me. Can too much caffeine do that?? WOW.
Un-bee-lievable -_-
That's why I think it's pretty cool that I have friends who dare to slap me when I do fall asleep during lectures. LOL. Kidding, they don't do that. But yes, they wake me up =P Thanks babes! You guys are one of a kind!

A straight forward person would tell me that I'm just making excuses, so I could cover up the fact that I'm a BIG LAZY BUM.lol.Maybe?
A part of me would agree to that, but that's just normal for every human being, unless u have some kinda addiction to working all the time. You're some kinda workaholic or something.
But then again, it'd be dumb to completely agree to the statement of me, being a LAZY BUM. Because, because ohh because I know I'm not.
It's just typical of life to throw a bunch of obstacles infront of u, and have you go through it. It's up to you if u can take it or not.

You should hear some of the blogs I recorded, which I chose not to publish,lol.
Some of them had a lot of singing, and crapping and mumbling in em.
And a lot of them, had sudden long silent moments ( that's when my mind starts wandering some place else). *SIGHS*

BUT, no worries! I'm working on it!
These things happen all the time. No big deal.
My audio blog & I won't get a divorce. We're still FAR from being irreconcilable.
Till then, Gutentag!